::Hmmm::

sth's wrong wit mi.. i dun noe... i din eat alot 4 dinner... but aft dinner i felt v cold & felt lyk pukin... urgh... but now im fine. yay...

ya... den walkin back to the car tt tym saw di xin. yayx... dance senior, supa nice 1... haha...

yest was my eng paper. both 1 & 2. the compo topics were leisure, a stranger, the promise, a recent feildtrip wit my class... & sth else i carn rmb. anw, i wrote the promise. was freakin out at the beginnin of the paper. i min srsly freakin out. i was lyk "omgomgomg... i dun noe wat to write... omgomg..." im srs. but obviosly i din say tt out loud. & i was lyk holdin my pen so damn tight. this always happens durin examinations.. srs, im not lyin. so lyk aft 5 mins of choosin the topic, i was lyk "ok amanda, get it over & done wit. juz rite some story where some1 can die..." yesh, so in de end i wrote dis supa long essay on a war... -_-"... i dun tink i'll get v gd grades 4 dis one doh. story line abit weird... but heck. & some1 died!!!! woots!!! as in in my story lah.

oh & the teacher in charge of our class was lyk srs dumb. cuz u noe paper 1 got 2 sections, compo & letter rite. den compo has 5 topics in which u choose 1. & the letter is compulsary. sth wrong wit tt teacher u noe. he was lyk "ok class, hu did section 1?" & every1 raise up hand. den he was lyk, "you all seperate section 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 & den place on ur table." den we were lyk huh. & he went "m i correct anot? yes rite." every1 was lyk tryin to hold back our laughter. he is damn dumb la. in de end he ask hu did section 1, which supposedly meant topic 1 for the compo, & collected dose. & den section 2, which was topic 2... & so on til the 5th 1. & the papers were supposed to be collected accordin to index num. stupid. but it was damn funi ok.

& den when he got annie & dawn to count the num of sheets dere were, the whole class broke out into a litter fight!!!! im srs!!!!!! every1 was throwin the papers, which dey wrote deir name on but didn use, at every1. at 1st, a grp of dem(well, jeannette...) were throwin the papers onli when the teacher turned arnd. but aft tt no one cared & EVERY1 started throwin the papers!!! it was so cool lor!!! zoey wanted to throw at me but hit victoria's head instead. hahax... the teacher l8r went "stop throwin the papers, l8r i give u a deeeemerit ah." he was lyk tryin to emphasize the demerit but he made it sound so damn funi la. haha.... every1 lyk luff lyk xiao. so cool... thk God mdm kala wasnt in class...

ahahahahaha....

we had recess aft tt. the whole canteen was cramped la. irritatin. assembled at foyer aft recess & went back to class to have the other paper. nth much happened aft tt. took mrt wit yipin & joey... bought back mcdonald to eat den took bus hme.

went 4 lessons tt nite. didn feel lyk goin doh. but turned out ok. i improved! yay... haha...

& 2dae had tuition. hmmm... i cant rmb wat happened durin tuition... short term memory... hehx... oh oh oh!!!! FISH!!!! AHAHAHAHA!!!! ok nvm, im too lazy to xplain. stpid boy in my tuition class, show off his tablet. -glares-... but whatever, the boys dere sucks. & the girls rule! woots!!!! haha...

::Haish::

lyk srsly, m i under depression or anyth? ya, i noe dose in my class wud be lyk "depression?! oh plz. -roll eyes-"

so? duzn min tt juz cuz i (almoz) always have a smile on my face mins im happy... haish...

"letting go is like taking part of your heart away, leaving the wound open & bleeding. yet ironically, clinging on at any cost would cause the same pain."
qouted frm a writing...

wat more can i say... thq qoute explains itself duzn it... haish... i dun noe hu i can trust anymore... i really duno wat to do... i dun even noe if i can do anyth...

::EXAMZ!!!!::

ok, so im not supposed to be online. & yes, i noe im supposed to be a gd lil' girl & go do my hw & study. but hu can resist it? (i think im addicted to the comp. heh...)

examz starts on... hmmm... OMG!!! this fri!!!
-runs arnd in circles screamin lyk a mad person-
-__-"

freaky, huh. im srsly gonna fail... my... lemme see... err, fail my sci, math, chi, eng, lit, hist, &... oh yea, art. tt makes all my subjects. woots. -_-" okayokay, lame. i noe.

oh shucks, its 0405. im supposed to be off the comp by 4. whoops. ok, i shall go be tt gd lil' girl & do my studies. (rite~... hu m i kiddin? gd lil' girl? muai? -shivers-, no way. hey, but i still do study ok.)

::Waaahhs::

haish... im so sad... i no longer love history. i h8 history. hmphs...

the day i showed my mum my hist & chi test paper
(so the drama... -_-")...
aysh: -gives papers to my mum-
mum: wats this?
aysh: my tests papers. (my chi paper was in frnt of the hist 1)
mum: -didn say anyth abt the chi paper which i only got abt 60+ & looks at my hist paper-
y is ur hist done so badly?!
(i din tell her i got the highest in class cuz i wanted to see her reaction...)
aysh: -stares at roxy who was lyin on the floor-
(i wanted to tell her tt the highest was 12 ova 15 when the highest was 11... for some reason which i 4got.. but decided not to..)
mum: u better buck up. & u betta not get this low 4 ur mid yrs.

so u see... i h8 hist. hmphs... i min yeah, i noe i din get A 4 the paper. but its just 1 mark below A... urgh... so sad... hmph...

haish... & i passed my sci CA marks by 9 PATHETIC MARKS. I H8 PYSHICS. HMPH. so sad lars... sci u noe... sci, me, flunkin. it juz duzn go 2gether. & i flunked my last test. awesome, just awesome. argh.....

i shall not post abt the ol' fols hme th cuz im in no mood to. whatever... i shal stop here.

::Watever::

listenin to friends forever by vitamin c. so long nv hear it liaox... i mish it... i reali do. i wonder if i'd stil cry if i watched the grad video now... hmmx... but i dun feel lyk it...

so mayb life duzn always go the way we want it to be. i min look at it dis way... we did promise to keep in touch & now... its lyk we rarely talk to each other. & even pri skool matters can be dragged til sec skool. i thot aft p6 grad, we'd cherish our fwenz more... perhaps i was wrong...

i dun noe wat to sae. i feel so pathetic rite now.

im lyk slackin in skool. wel, not xactly, its juz tt i have absolutely no idea wat my sci teacher is tokin abt. haish... im flunkin sci. my all tym fave subject has now turned to a nitemare on my report card. well, not yet. but soon.

my maths is srsly pathetic. o come on, a 13 over 20 is lyk horrible lars. i passed by lyk 3 marks. how pathetic can my math get?? & my chi... urgh... the teacher is lyk damn borin la, practically no one can pay attention. my eng? o gosh, our form teacher cannot even teach okay. hist is atil ok. lit... aw shucks, im barely passin...

haish... my studies suck.

::Neoprintx::


1e, mi, cho & tts vera below.


hmphs, so horrible, all bully mi 1. bleagh u guys.


cho cho looks lyk she's gonna kiss mi. lolx..


vera looks v blur in dis 1. haha...

::Hmphs::

first of all, id lyk to announce to every1 readin dis tt I DO NOT HAVE A BIG HEAD!!!

hmphs. stupid. hmphhmphhmphhmph. u guys all so horrible 1... hmphs.

im so pissed off rite now. but srsly if u ask mi, i dun reali noe the xact reason... but watever, 2dae was so fun. i finally saw vera & cho cho ag. its bin so long since ive seen dem. & i reali missed dem.

okay, so 2dae i went out wit 1e, cho cho, vera & joyce. (or shld i sae jos? fine fine, jk jk...) so sad so mani ppl cudnt come...

u noe wat? i dun feel lyk typin, so i shal juz post the pics we took. as i said. kayz, so here dey r. sry, i havent scan the neoprints into the com, so i wun be postin dem yet...


cho, joyce, 1e & vera.


vera & muai. so sweet hor. haha...


hmms... so dark... 1e, cho, me & vera... i tink. oh oh, & dere's joyce at the corner!


1e look so inoocent.


vera looks weird. haha...


vera & cho & tt cute lil' th!


half of cho, 1e, mi & half of vera. =P


aha! i got a pic of joyce!


cho cho & 1e. dey look lyk sistas hor. haha...

::!@#$%*&%@$::

argh... im so pissed. can u just 4 cryin out loud stop it?!?! wud u STOP gettin on my freakin nerves!!!! argh...u noe wat? 4get it. im tired of avoidin u juz bcuz of dis idiotic th which made no sense watsoever. so frm now on, i dun noe u & u dun noe mi. o dun get mi wrong, im lyk not sad or anyth, im lyk overjoyed if u dun noe. lyk srsly, i cannot stand u any longer. u r so freakin lame & FYI, if u stil dun noe, I H8 U! I H8 U I H8 U I H8 U! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah, & 1 more th, STOP goin up to mi actin all nice & stuff, cuz u, 4 1, is NOT nice, & 2, its so damn freakin obvious u jerk. arghsssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmphs. im so pissed. -fumin- u can practically see smoke comin out of mi. urgh... dis is lyk pathetic, is it reali tt fun to get on my nerves. srsly, tt is my impression i get. lyk watever, y da heck m i even tellin u dis? gosh, wat the heck ish wrong wit mi????

::-_-"::

i carn help but wonder...
duz ani1 actually miss me? as in my pri skool fwenz.
o w8, let mi rephrase tt... does any1 actually rmb mi??
srsly, its as if aft grad ive "mysteriously" vanished frm all deir minds.
haish...

o yes, thx ugly hams (hehx) 4 cheerin mi up yest. u rawk. & 1e, muz cheer up kayx? -hugs-

::Damn::

im v pissed off now. my fwen hu i thot i cud trust betrayed me. wat de heck is goin on in my life?! even i myself dun noe. urgh...

i wrote dis... i dun noe if its considered a poem. but wat the heck, im juz gonna post it.

Empty...

these words i write
holds no meaning
the depths of emptines
in my soul
never ending
never noticed

the deserted alleys
of this broken world
closing in on mi
dimming all light
of the glimpse
of tomorrow

my own hurt
my own sorrows
drowning mi
my silent murderer
controlling my mind
destroying it
with every second
gone by

& then
everything wil end
everything wil finish
there's no more light
no more hope
all has ended
now &
forever

nothing of this
will be spoken of
not even a single word
laid on a human tongue
everything will be forgotten
no one
no one will remember
the last of me
the last of
life

i onli lyk the 3rd paragrph.. i tink the rest is crap... but srsly, y do i even bother?!

::Lalala::
(dis is not a poem. just how i feel.)
ive decided.
its time to move on. no more tears.
juz smiles.
the memories wont be sth i'll use to compare anymore
but the best part of my life i'll nv 4get.
the way some of my fwenz r actin 2wards mi,
wont hurt mi
but make mi smile.
cuz i noe dey've change 4 de betta
& every1 has to move on.
grad may be over
& we may not be as close as b4.
but we r stil fwenz
no matter wat mite happen.
u may 4get how i look lyk 50 yrs l8r
or even my name
& how we used to be
but at liz i noe ive made a diff in ur life
lyk how u've made in mine.
& de ppl tt i h8 now
i'l try to 4give
aft all, life is
just tt short...

::Ptf::
okay, im so pissed off rite now... urgh...
my wonderful wonderful mood swing 4 de dae: beginnin of de dae was great, reali hyper. den i got reali depressed & now im reali reali pissed off. urgh...
2dae... hmmm... met ainslee online... chatted wit her.. den ate lunch... met up wit 1e & jaz! so cool... so damn long nv see jaz liao... so great to see her ag.
took bus 2gether with 1e to tuition claz. started arguin abt hu was... erm... more... er... sth... damn funni... at de tuition centre 1e said tt i noe almoz all the songs on the universe so uncle kok leong was lyk testin us. he played a song & we were supposed to name the title & artiste...
tuition claz rawked. was so cool arh... den ms chan was lyk "the theme 4 2dae is tt the boys have to act lyk the girls & the girls have to act lyk the boys. so boys, start to sa jiao." lolx...so we were lyk tryin to get the boys to sa jiao. 1 of dem reali sa jiao okay... so damn furni... hahax... & we had dis worksheet where we're supposed to lyk reduce the num of words th 4 de summary. was reali fun cuz we were lyk challengin ms chan hu cud get the lowest num of words. (we got less num of words! bleah...)
den went out to have dinner wit my fam...
went hme aft tt...
got reali depressed... cuz i rmbed sth... got over it aft a while... i din cry, thk God.
den i got reali pissed off wit every1... cuz dey were lyk tellin mi wat to do & bein totally unreasonable. ya, my bro was lyk "amanda! come & help mi lah", my mum went "amanda!! y rnt u helpin?! its ur responsibility u noe!!" & my dad went "amanda, help me throw dis away." when the dustbin is lyk SO near to him. den i was lyk "urgh" & he started sayin to my mum "u tink when we grow old, will amanda take care of us or thow us in a home?", i cudnt stand his tone of voice lar. urgh... my eldest bro was lyk tryin to get my attention the whole tym, he was lyk "amanda... amanda. amanda!!" den my mum shouted at me to hurry up. gawd, can't dey see im busy?! lyk carn a girl get even 5 mins to her owm?!?!?!?! urgh.
so pissed lar... damn...
i 4got 2dae was april fool's dae. but watever, i have no mood to type anymore.